I finished a book recently that I really enjoyed. It’s called John 3:16 and is written by Nancy Moser.
I won’t tell their whole story, but I will spoil part of the ending. At the end, the mom calls the whole family over with some news that she wanted to share with everyone at once. The wife, whose perspective we read throughout the book, braces herself to find out the chemo didn’t work and how long the mom had to live. I braced myself for the same thing.
When they got there the mom made her announcement. She was cancer free. The doctors were shocked. It was a miracle.
I was excited because I had really become invested in the characters’ lives, but then I was confused. I was confused because I didn’t know why I was bracing myself to find out she was about to die. They hosted prayer meetings and it was clear that the mother was a woman of faith, but I didn’t believe she was going to be healed. It was never even a thought that she might live.
In my real life, I struggle to believe that God is really Jehovah Rapha, the God who heals. When I find out someone is sick, instead of proclaiming Isaiah 53:5 “But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed.” I start saying things like “Lord if it’s your will…” Or “Holy Spirit be a comforter. Help me to prepare for what’s coming.”
Science is really cool because of all the amazing things they’re able to make and fix. But I realize that it limits my ability to be a person of faith. Because I put total trust in doctors, medicines and treatments to make others feel better and I’m comfortable bragging about my mustard seed faith in God to be a healer.
This isn’t to discredit doctors, science or medicine because I totally respect the field. However, the book showed me how easily I’ll believe in the understandable things before my God.
I gotta do better because before there were scientific advances, there was the Word. From now on, I will expect miracles before I brace myself for death.
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