I’m the Beholder And All I See Is Beauty

This morning, I stood in the mirror and wept as I digested the lyrics of this song for the trillionth time.

I cried because I am a new woman.

I cried because I kept my promise to myself to love me the way I deserve to be loved.

I cried because I’ve spent A LOT of time alone, but moments of loneliness are so few these days.

I cried because God hears.

I cried because God answers.

I cried because God restores.

I cried because I remember looking in this same mirror with a smaller body, longer hair, less acne and still hating my reflection.

I cried because the woman looking back loves me more than anybody.

I cried because I don’t have the words to adequately express the gratitude in my heart.

I cried because I’m the beholder and all I see is beauty and that’s new for me, but I love it.