Home Is Where the Heart [of God] Is

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Last year my life changed a lot. The city I live in, the job I do, the people I live with, the church I attend, the work I do at church… All different now.

All the changes happened pretty close to the same time. That season of so much transition left me feeling lost and frankly kinda… Homeless. I have always had somewhere to live, but you know the saying “Home is where the heart is.”? It’s so very true, but my heart was everywhere. My heart was in the Greater Lansing area because I lived there my whole adult life. It was at Kidtime because I worked there longer than any other job I’d ever worked. My heart was at the Epicenter of Worship because it was the only constant in my ever changing life. That is until I realized the Lord was shifting me to a new place, spiritually and literally. When I finally acknowledged the feeling that change was unavoidable, between sobs, I asked and begged the Lord to let me stay. Because that was my home. My spiritual parents were there and they have nurtured me since I was a babe in Christ and a teen in my natural life.
My friends were there. And I was comfortable there.
One day, during one of my fits I heard the Holy Spirit edit that home adage. He said “Home is where the heart [of God] is.” I knew what He was saying. He meant, wherever God is, I’m home. That gave me the peace and oz (courage) to move on, emotionally.

That moment was replaying in my mind constantly as I visited Caesarea Phillipi. Today, I walked on a bridge that goes over the Jordan River.

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As soon as I stepped on it, a song came to mind. “When I wake up to find Your glory divine and I finally bow at Your feet, I will lift up Your name in honor and praise. When I cross over Jordan, I know that I’ll be running home to You.”

One of the main purposes of this trip, according to the visionary, is to help people develop a heart for Israel. That’s what happened for me in that moment. God loves the people of Israel. He is in covenant with them. He loves the land of Israel. If His heart is here, I’m home.

And it’s a blessing to be grafted into that covenant family.

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The biggest kicker? My room number is my home address.

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The God Who Answers By Fire

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About a month ago, the worship teams of both my churches learned a song by Eddie James to sing at a conference. The title of the song is “I’m Sending the Fire”. It’s based on the scripture in 1 Kings 18 where Elijah got fed up with all the idol worship. He said, “Then call on the name of your god, and I will call on the name of the LORD. The god who answers by setting fire to the wood is the true God!” And all the people agreed. (‭1 Kings‬ ‭18‬:‭24‬ NLT)

Since learning it, I’ve been meditating on the passage. Just focusing on how our God responds to us in powerful ways. So much so that a few weeks after the conference I had a dream and at the end of the dream I heard Numbers 16. Now hear me out, I love the Lord. I read the bible, but I don’t mess with Numbers. AND I have never heard the Lord speak that way. So I wake up and I’m like whet? Then I looked it up and my eyes were WIDE open when I got to this part.

If these men die a natural death, or if nothing unusual happens, then the LORD has not sent me. But if the LORD does something entirely new and the ground opens its mouth and swallows them and all their belongings, and they go down alive into the grave, then you will know that these men have shown contempt for the LORD.” He had hardly finished speaking the words when the ground suddenly split open beneath them. The earth opened its mouth and swallowed the men, along with their households and all their followers who were standing with them, and everything they owned. So they went down alive into the grave, along with all their belongings. The earth closed over them, and they all vanished from among the people of Israel. (‭Numbers‬ ‭16‬:‭29-33‬ NLT)

All of this was going through my mind today as I stood in the place where Elijah made that declaration. You read that right. That’s where I was today. I can hardly gather the words to describe how it feels standing in that spot and coming to the realization that I serve the God who answers by fire. And He’s the God who opens the earth at the word of a prophet.

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That’s one thing I did today. Dope right?